Good mood!

Good Mood!
Current mood: satisfied

This is sort of a strange thing to blog about...

But, lately I've just been in a very positive, progressive-thinking mood. Dunno if it's just the coming of summer (probably) or that my astrological indicators are in some sort of alignment (more likely) but things just seem to be clicking lately.

I got the very first college-level 4.0 in my life this past quarter! Not bad for having been out of school for 8 years. This has tremendously helped my confidence and outlook regarding this this whole going-back-to-school thing. It's been sort of an experiment for me (and for those close to me you know that I've really changed around my lifestyle for this) and it feels very rewarding to have some level of success.

I've reconnected lately with some people who have been out of my life for some time. It was fantastic to see one of my all-time closest buddies Nate last week. I've always had a high level of respect and admiration for him, and it was so great to hang out with him after a couple years apart. I'm glad he's back from Iraq safely and I look forward to seeing him more often.

I've also been extremely happy with the way my relationship with my parents has developed over the past 4-5 years or so. I really like that I have 4, not just 2, really cool parents, all of whom treat me as an equal and all of whom have contributed to the adult I've become. I see the way other people still have serious issues with their parents, even in their adult lives, and I feel lucky that after many years of tense, acrimonious, and sometimes bitter conflict, we've resolved our differences and agreed to disagree. Our relationship is stronger and for the better because of it.

My oldest younger sister Anna recently was married, and she was SO HAPPY. It was heartwarming to see her finally tie the knot with her childhood sweetheart and best friend Sean. It was one of the more emotional experiences I've had in years. They are going to have a good life together. You can just tell by being around them how much in love they are. I'm always nervous about Mormon weddings, specifically because they get married so young, and because they are so inexperienced and naive sexually, but I really think this one was meant to be.

I've finally started to make firm plans (after MUCH talk) and will be buying property this fall. Unless the housing market crashes over the summer, I'll probably have to stick to a condo for now, but it will sure be a load off my mind to know that I'm not wasting $600 on rent every month. Jeeez! It will be cool to start building some equity. And then, a few years from now when I begin my actual career, I'll have a little equity saved up as down payment for a real house (hopefully out in the middle of nowhere considering how much I hate people... ha ha ha... No, actually, I'm not kidding, disregard that ha ha ha...)

Anyway, I don't write this as a "Look At Me I'm Happy" sort of thing. It's not my intention to gloat. It's just that, for most of the past 10-15 years, I've had my struggles and been extremely unhappy and often wondered if I would ever feel the way I do now. There were some VERY dark moments along the way, with little or no light at the end of the tunnel.

I guess that's just a life lesson in The Best Things in Life Don't Come Easy. And I certainly don't expect things to plateau here. I'm going to keep working on the things that bring me down, and keep focusing on the things that lift me up. I figure I've got another 50 years at least, and as we all know, anything can happen at anytime.

But for now, I'm smiling! :)

Currently listening :
Transitions
By John Digweed
Release date: 27 June, 2006